Please Don't Run Away, I Swear It Isn't Contageus

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 16:12:27 GMT

....................you?

I wish I was then, what I am now
because life is too beautiful to end
you don't know until its ripped away
just believe
nothing is not worth the effort
fow when I fall, I hope it is a beautiful one
and you are there to help me up
so that i can fall again
and everytime i fall
there is more than enough reasons to get up
but i only need one
and everytime I see the sunshine
all I see is You.........

Life is not something you watch and will it to happen
It's something you change yourself!!

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 22:28:07 GMT

now answer me honestly.....do you like to pack boxes?.....I kno i do. how about operating a lawn mower? or looking for forest fires?

well i guess i'll update ever so often at least until everyone takes me off their friends list. i've honestly lost track of what the meaning of friend is, whether that is a good thing or not i'm not exactly sure. But i don't sit here anymore and take the time to count them or worry about it.

But of this i am certain:
if you squeeze an egg it will break
there is absoultely no point to the nutrition label on bottled water
racecar spelled backwards is racecar, but panda spelled backwars is adnap(and i don't know about you, but i'd like to meet one of them adnaps)

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 01:40:16 GMT

hmm since it took my stupid computer 15 minutes to load this, i forgot what i wanted to say, oz wellz.

Um homecoming week was fine i suppose. two pep rallys essentialy, lol what ever gets us out of class. lol no one really appreciated the fact that i painted my nails. lol i don't blame you, but it was all in school spirit, not trying to be gay, which obviously i'm not as you all continue to point out. lol guess i can't pull off the gay look like i could last year.

The game was fun, i didn't get to see much of it, but we won, so i'm officially not a bad luck charm anymore, OOOO who stuck it to the man. ME!!! I'm just that cool. it seemed that like everyone was there so that was cool. I got to be Cindys puppy, yeah i kno i'm whipped. but lol i really don't care.

haha well everyone is at homecoming right now, partying it up like its 1999!! lol which is why i'm actually updating, theres nothing much better to do, so y not come back to the cult. and enjoy some emo music while yur doing it. woo hoo

I guess i could do the lj thing and emo it up by saying comment if you have the time in ur life for the little people like me, haha yeah nvm.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 20:32:39 GMT

I guess there is nothing wrong with a three day weekend.... except that means no pajama day. now that is a travesty...tear. Well its homecoming week, lol i get to be cindys sexy sidekick on super hero day, so that sohuld be interesting. I can't go to the dance but i can go to the gaem. So i hope that is some fun.

I WILL NEVER MAKE ANOTHER PROMISE....IT'S WHERE U WANT TO BE

I'm sorry it took me so long...

enjoy ur weekend and have a good homecoming week!!!!!

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 00:48:51 GMT

Well it seems that I guess I don't need to write in this journal anymore. no one seems to really read it and i don't blame u. I haven't really written anything plausable in months. Maybe cause i'm not emo anymore. well in case this is my last entry it has been fun. lol, nothing like taking part in the real IB thing, and complaining about my life and making up random things to pass time. lol school is fun this year. maybe cause it is goin by fast, maybe cause i'm not such an anti-social kid, who assumed he was better than everyone. I guess thats the one thing i took away from booker middle.

Well my weekend is going real good, even though I had to take the PSAT's which i sucked on. but it was cool anyway. got to hang out with people. I guess that makes it ok. lol well i hope everyone has an awesome weekend and so on!!

u can still go to my myspaceizzle www.myspace.com/thatsmyface_notmyass

She got out of town on the railway, new york bound
Took all except my name
Another alien on broadway
Well, some things in this world you just can't change
Some things you can't see until it gets too late

Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home

I got a hole in me now
I got a scar I can talk about
She keeps a picture of me in her apartment in the city
But some things in this world
Man, they don't make sense
Some things you don't leave until they leave you
And then the things that you miss, you say

Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home

Let that city take you in (come on home)
Let that city spit you out (come on home)
Let that city take you down, yeah
For god sakes turn around

Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world
Yeah well, maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights dont receive you
Well, turn yourself around and come on home

Yeah, come on home
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Come on home
Yeah, come on home
Yeah, come on home
Yeah, come on home
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Come on home

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 13:29:02 GMT

Laurens party was awesome!!!!!
lol wet n' wild!!
It's pretty apparent that many simple thing ammuse IB kids.
Baloons
Hair Straightners
Twister
doing what ever possible to get a little ball

lol despite making a fool of myself. lol, well who doesn't like jumping up and down in rythem every so often. so I guess I don't really care. Any time that Brad gets his hair straightened means the party is off the chain. haha. lolwell again despite being in the way of everyone for a while, i had a great time. AND I HOPE LAUREN HAS AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY IN A COUPLE OF DAYS!!!!

game tonight!!! lol I guess we are gonna lose since i'm going, haha yeah its starting to get frustrating how i can't seem to see us win. But maybe we will since Cindy is cancelling my bad luck out with her good luck. WHO KNOWS? PSAT's tomorrow. O FUN, going to school at 8:00 a.m on a saturday. whatever I hope it proves to be a helpful test.

FRENCHIES UNITE!!

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 21:03:42 GMT

Your not so picture perfect now......

for some reason, I feel awesome. lol, nothing really interesting has happened lately and I don't know. I like it, thats for sure. I feel like the entire school is going pseudo emo though. It's really odd. But thats Southeast.

How ever far away, I will always love you....

Yet again I have baseball practice tonight. Idk for some reason it gives meaning to my life. I don't do much else besides it. and hopefully with all the playing time I will make varsity this year. lol I think it would be cool to be on varsity as a sophomore!!!

lol i'm scared of all the people saying things to me in German. it isn't nice to make fun

Is this the way you want it
Is this the way it has to be

Support the Booker Hooker, Bar-B-Que in a bucket!!

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 02:41:05 GMT

lol well um, we sucked tonight. Absolutely no offense to show of and we gave up the ball too much. Bottom line. I guess I had a good time. lol I really would have prefered to see us win. so in the last two years we have lost 4 games and every one of those games I have gone to and that means I am bad luck. So shoot me!!

So today was pretty fun, no school equals fun. lol i guess that makes sense. I woke up at 9, I wish it was later, but the phone rang. I cursed the stupid telemarketer out in french so, i guess that makes up for it. they certainly won't be calling back again.

I'm excited about ur party!! and I hope it works out for you. U deserve a good guy.

ICK, lol I need to talk to you. but u aren't on, lol and never read this, but lol i guess it wastes space so I will write it. I want to ask but then again I don't

IF YOUR HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT, LOOk AWAY!!

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 19:21:54 GMT

Well nothing else compares to having to watch a movie that will forever haunt you!!

Thoughts while watching movie:
Hey that carpet looks like Mr. Fosters hair
If you look at that upside down, it isn't as disgusting
!!I Wanna rock n' roll all night!!
!!And Party Everyday!!
isn't that a fall out boy song
u so did not just get your dust mites on me!!
if ur happy and you know it, look away!!
wow i'm on Max's 999 whitest guys ever. At least Bob Saget is on there too.

I don't believe that I falied either of my tests. Just screwed them up enough to get a C. I really hope that it doesn't affect my gardes too much. I like my 86%'s. lol though I hate when my stupid mistakes keep me from getting the grades I want.

So I guess you could say that it is a crush, maybe even a big one. ooooo ur interested aren't u?

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 23:53:03 GMT

lol what did I learn this weekend? The gay penguin couple in Los Angeles broke up!! LIKE OMG!!! the world is going to end. Hide your children!!! It's a travisty

Let's get Fucked up and go die in the rain!!! thank you Motion City Soundtrack

I did all my Biology crosswords!! I was quite proud of myself that I actually wasted a sunday to do them. WOW!! Go Me!!

Homecoming?? eh, lol i don't know? lol dry humping and drama. not realy my thing!! yes that is what i said. dry humping and drama. or how about a public orgy.

Hangman, it's not your fault......

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 13:59:51 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can I get a what what! I really hope u have a great day and don't hurt anyone once u get ur lisence!! lol <3 ya

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 02:14:20 GMT

I have a feeling that it will blow up in my face....but u can't be a wuss forever.

To be honest I had a good night. I really hope u all did as well and enjoy your weekend. YUS we beat da Bruins!!! don't mess with the pothetic cheering seminoles!! What What.

CAn't touch this, na na na, hamma hamma!! wow i'm very different. what ever lol happiness is what it is. Thats Katherine for being there to talk to today.

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 18:49:09 GMT

I have something to say!!

School was fine, i looked bad and we had a pep rally. Thats about it. O and I had to play for 3rd graders in guitar.

I feel like I have no chance....

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 20:18:25 GMT

i feel sorta better....sorta

School was ok, guitar was actually pretty good. For the first time all year mr. downs actually said good rehersal.... I myself was very shocked.

Um in history we watched some retarted movie about the american revolution. And i pointed out that the first person shot in the Boston masacre was black. buncha racists!!

LoL um french was different. we spent nearly the entire period reading our thingys and I had to go like 5th. but actually it was a good thing. cause i didn't think about being nervous. Eveyone knows my pronuciation sucks anyway. HAHA and Cindy said I was a chipmunk :( I was so hurt. but hey chipmunks are cute. haha.....yeah

marine science. was ok, we watched another boll nye video and took another easy quiz.

I might have some bad news...... but i'm happy for once just thinknig about it

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 20:49:33 GMT

ewww biology test!!! exactly...I had to leave the essay about the cyotisis ones blank. Guess it had to be the only thing i didn't study... oz wellz

I left my history book in pre-calc. I really really hope that it is still there. cause otherwise i'd have to pay for two books. Le Grr. o and i also wasn't aware that our word problem sheets were due. so i'll have a C now. and uh. I hate that, cause i know how to do everything in the class. If i'm going to get a C it's because i'm struggling. Not because nicoles head is in the way from me being able to read the other side of the board. DAMN!!

I'm conflicted, it feels like i'm not the only one, but then again what do i know about stuff like that. I hate you so much right now, and i ca't seem to figure out why. U just get on my nerves so much

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 23:51:42 GMT

We're all the sisters and the brothers
until we find we don't believe the same

Like Gary's getting drunk to forget Sarah
Sarah's stealing money from her parents
Aaron's lying straight to John
About Megan and the things that went on
Jessica's a gossip,
Laura's a slut
Derrick hits Bridget
Ben deals drugs
Seth spends all his money gambling
Joey stop praying its all the same

We are all the same
People with sinning hearts that make us equal
Here's my hand not words said desperately

It's not our job to make anyone believe

well it's obvious that no one really reads this so, i Have decided to just write random things to pass the time. I no longer have the will to care if people comment, cause i'm just not that interesting. Or maybe it's because i'm not like anyone else and I don't complain about my life anymore. You all that talk about how life is cruel and u never have a boyfriend or girlfriend cause ur ugly. UR NOT UGLY!!!!! the reason you can't get a relationship is because of ur pissy attitude. Dammit!! ur all great people when u want to be and u need to grow up. I canonly say this because i finally did. It's retarted how you waste your life bitching about stuff that isn't there. enjoy ur life. ask out the person u like. they are gonna say yes.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 21:06:33 GMT

I'm still waiting here, to kill all of you.....

lol as if, Gosta love the new Coheed and Cambria CD. It's da shiz nizzle

School was pretty good today. went by real fast and I forgot that it was friday. In english we finished the movie and took a cool field trip to the book room, which ended in dissapointment, because the book room lady was in another class room. O well I guess we get to do it all again on tuesday!!

History: Well as usual we were to teach ourselves. I think that Mr. Murphy justs was nice enough to allow us to be in his class during his planning period. So he justs makes us teach oyr selves, since he honestly isn't supposed to have us. Our class are like the lost souls of IB.

Pre-Calc: I got a 90% on my test, i'm quite proud of myself! and for the first time all year, I don't understand something in there. I guess I wasn't paying attention or something, cause everyone else seems to get it.

Biology: this was by far the best biology class of the year so far. lol my table worked on the crossword and hada lot of fun for some reason. And we did in fact finish it so u can't say we were slacking off. Apparently I came out of the closet, well it was more like Max pushed me out.....

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 19:36:34 GMT

I'm impossible to forget
but hard to remember

It's pretty rediculous that when i'm not acting like an ass, people think that i am. and when I am they don't get as mad. i'm sorry jessica

my day was good as usual, we got to use play dough in marine science, in order to make the ocean floor. lol probably the most fun i've had all year in that class. nothing like revisiting the past. I've got to remember to register for the PSAT tomorroew, while it is still fresh in my head.

ug i've got my first baseball game tonight, lol after one practice. we're gonna suck and i'm playing woth 8th graders. O well it is a good tune up for later this year. and hopefully it will waste time inbetween our tryouts.

ug ur so frustrating

OOOO and I got the new Emery and Cohhed CD's

enjoy ur afternoon/evening

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 19:43:02 GMT

The colors slowly bleed....
we're just looking for the exit

Well i'm fine, I actually surprised myself. My weekend wasn't actually too horrible. The gators won, so that was a real good thing. I'm starting to become mature I think. No more drama, at least none that I caused. Well lets see I have a big english test and two bio quizzes tomorrow. Maybe even a history test. It would be nice if they all didn't put them on the same day. IB teachers are supposed to talk to each other and plan around haveing a test in every class on the same day. I really hope we don't have a quiz in pre-cacl. I know we have a test wednesday. that is bad enough.

It's wise to sever our lungs

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 12:58:22 GMT

Yeah, I guess bowling was ok. I'm glad that we sorta got to hang out. Though Yasmins' friends were really annoying and so was blake. With his i'm so tough look at my abs!! I didn't really feel good though. I had a huge migrane and back pain from standing so much.

And all the things that you never ever told me, and all the smiles that are forever gonna haunt me....

Well I hope everyone enjoys there weekend. I know i'm gonna try!! I'm expecting it to happen this time so I won't be upset

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 20:02:02 GMT

FALL OUT BOY!!!
1.We're only liars, but we're the best
2.Turn off the lights, and turn off the shyness
3.Why don't you show me the little bit of spine that you've been saving for his matress
4.Isn't it messed up how I'm dying to be him
5.I'll be you best kept secret and your biggest mistake
6.I'm hopelessly hopeful, that you're just hopeless enough
7.You'll sleep with anyone that will lie down....
8.The best part of "Believe" is the "lie"
9.The tide's out, the ship's run aground
10.And I've got arrogance down to a science
11.So say, what are you waiting for?...kiss her, kiss her
12.Tell me why you'd like boys like me better, in the dark lying on top of you
13.Kiss and tell(loose lips sink ships)

lol i was bored, hey what else is there to do, homework. I think not!!

I'm excited about tonight, there apparently a lot of people coming, so for once they won't be fixed on us and we can be all "awww"

and if you see this makes you happy then i'm not the only?

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 19:31:00 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAURA!!!!!!!!!

I have a terrible migrane and sore throat. other than that my day was ok, except in French, that wasn't exactly a very fun class today. nuthing is fun when u are left out.

I'm pretty sure tomorrow is thursday so I've got myself a lot of homework tonight. I guess it would have been responsible to have filled out the questions for the great gatsby after I read each chapter. But when am I ever responsible. Well thursday is closer to friday which is when I get to drop it like it's HAWT and show off my mad bowling skills. o and most importantly hang out with my tree.

It was the calm that killed the storm

Die Young and Save Yourself

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 20:51:42 GMT

I'll speak in riddles so you can understand,
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace in pen,
So in love with me.......
Burnout, not fade away!!

Today was another good day, like most of the days this year!! We watched an interesting movie in English, took a rather simple test in history, took another rather simple quiz in math and ended the day with some long notes about stuff I don't care to remember.

I'm frustrated with myself, maybe it's just the fact that i'm sick again, but I don't know. I don't think it is pothetic that i'm sorta lonely when I see everybody else acting together but I can't. I guess i'm redundant but I don't care, if it scares you away it will.

Despite the fact that i'm missing you, life is still good and all, so complaining isn't right, but whatever. These entries have become like a list of how I feel and since it is that only one person is likely to read this it sorta seems pointless since i'm supposed to be able to tell you anything, but it feels out of place when we are just talking. I don't maybe I just am happy when i'm talking to you and that I just don't care about this stuff. It would be easier if you could read my mind.

You are a comfort that I know I have but because of this I cant have unless you are there, so let's play doctor babe, we'll operate today......

I have a secret.....(oooooooooo) you know you want to know!!

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 22:24:34 GMT

I wish I knew... why it seems that there are two sides
I always have to find a way to get lost

Well tomorrow is monday, which means school.... le grr!! It seems like yesterday was friday. O well maybe this week will go by fast and then the weekend lasts a long time.
Um I'm quite confused. Homecoming is not for about a month and a half and yet everyone is talking about it. IDK it just seems a little odd to me....

I hate french homework. Ok this honestly is unecessary!!! who gives a damn about a stupid poet who writes about a stupid train and a stupid girl. AHHHHH!!!! anyone agree?

I see everyone else and just wish you were here......Incubus

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 17:11:31 GMT

Does an angel hold a sign with directions for everyone
When Heaven's Not Far Away

Well we lost, not a big surprise seeing that I went to the game, I've been to three games in these two years so far and we've lost, the only times we lose is when I show up. :( !! I did have some fun though. The reason that the Sarasota band drowned ours out is because they have 4 Tubas and we only hqve three. It's all about the big metal abract art pieces!!!

Well it looks like my weekend isn't going to be exactly fun. :(, I really wanted to see you, but theres always this friday!! I have to read for English and History and thenm the crap load of frencxh that madame vensel just decided to give us!

Enjoy your weekend!!